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October 12, 2008

today

it took me 5 hours to get out of the house
thats how so very hard it was for me today

friday i watched a made-in-china film
i dont usually watch low budget china movies
but zhou xun, whom i fell in love with
in perhaps love, was in the new movie
the equation of love and death -
the movie focused on Li Mi, a taxi driver
she was different from all the other cab drivers
she had it all simplified and figured out
work, love, marriage - life was set

but her parents forbid her to marry the man
he wasnt good enough
they were going to elope
but he realized too he was not good enough
so he left her


4 years later she was still waiting,
same streets, same corners
still reciting his letters
still counting their memories
and marking the days

one scene hit deep -
on an odd day she runs into him
she confronts him
he was adamant he did not know her,
he held another womans hand and walked away
li mi chased them down the street
the strength that carried her foward
for the past 4 years betrayed her
she finally broke down
she recited his letters, she screamed out his goals,
his ambitions, his promises to her and his dreams with her
but today he was to remain unmoved
and they, strangers.

4 years -
and she was still stuck.

watching this i realized something - love isnt a possession
and sometimes love doesnt have to be reciprocal

when you love someone you constantly wish them well
because thats all that matters. them.

love can be one-sided.

it was a good movie.


hlam

*i started this blog with the title taiwan - see how i went off on a tangent ~*

April 29, 2008

the lonesome puppy

this book is about an oversized dog overlooked due to his ginormous size, and therefore endures loneliness. one day he meets a young girl by surprise. their lives took a twist, fate took a spin. this lonesome puppy, who had longed for companionship found his life's bestest friend. hl.





ive always enjoyed yoshitomo nara's artwork.
the first time i picked up a copy was about 3 years ago
in a japanese book store in sf
i was intrigued then

half a year later at my lowest i was again drawn to his art
his characters gave me a voice,
they spoke on my behalf about happiness and sadness,
frustrations and annoyances, hope and disappointment, anger and passion
all of which i could never successfully acknowledge or express.

nara's 2006 calender is still hanging on my wall.

April 13, 2008

april of every year

two stools, two bikes, two people

spring 2007
i had one of the happiest aprils ever
i never thought that could happen
after a history of april disappointments

sometime before i die

i wanna run through a field of sakuras again
i wanna sit under the blossomed flowers and picnic

i wanna see japan in a blanket of snow
and relive that magical feeling
of a white christmas

and if i were to die
id want it to happen in spring
so my ashes can be scattered
where the cherry blossoms grow

japan, just 3 more times.


hl

April 1, 2008

april one

two thousand ...three...


he leapt from the 24th floor to fly ...

he left behind his baggage ...

and he flew high ...

away from all his fears he flew -

1956-2003

March 7, 2008

too lusty or too much caution?


recently i heard someone bought this dvd,
watched it,
was disgusted,
and is looking for someone else to give it away to.

i dont think this film is about nudity or sex
i dont think this film is about the blood & grudge of ww2
i dont think this film is about ang lee or his hollywood attempt



this film is about the way he secretly looked at her
and the way she secretly looked at him

this film is about the way she convinced him she loved him
and how he finally compromised with loving her

this film is about the way he convinced her he loved her
and how she finally compromised with loving him

the series of events
open the pages of a love
short-lived
with no ending

im waiting for a limited edition to be released.


hl
lost in thought tonight
3.18.08 11.48pm

March 1, 2008

this song

this song

the accident didnt rip any skin or bone
just an aching body, a mild concussion,
and then i started humming this song.

whether i am brushing my teeth
or staring at the computer screen,
waiting to fall asleep when night falls
or awakening to the recent morning chill,
this song has been loop playing in my head.
i dont like that.

but i like the song.




a lil lam in time
march 1 2008
5:01am

November 10, 2007

5:21 am



I sat 3 hours in traffic from San Diego to Los Angeles yesterday to interview him at the press conference.

The drive was frustrating, but his charm and genuineness, made it worth it.
I sat 4 hours in traffic again today to the USC Galen Center to see him perform.
The sincerity of his songs and the power of his voice made it worth it.

Wakin's music soothed my mind while I was growing up. As an adult, his music continues to do so. It's 5:21 in the morning and I'm still sitting here replaying every scene from yesterday and today.

It has been so long since I listened to some of the songs performed tonight. It felt like Wakin was singing our history, bringing us to the past, and reciting to us our stories. Every song stirred up an old feeling, a familar emotion. Every song was attached to a unique feeling, a unique moment, and only Wakin could bring us to reliving it.

In memory of Wakin's 20th anniversary - I shook his hand and gave him a hug.
Thanks for an incredible interview and experience.


HL

November 4, 2007

6 months later
















after 6 months of soul rejuvenation, i feel alive again.





the eyes that could not open to see any sort of beauty is peering again.




life is placed right before me, and im gonna live it.




April 30, 2007

the beauty of life




The crime of suicide lies in its disregard for the feelings of those whom we leave behind.
E. M. Forster (1879-1970)

April 26, 2007

myoden tokyo

4.7.07 - myoden tokyo

look around you -

amid the distractions, there's tranquility

it just starts from within

no expections, no disappointments.

hl


February 20, 2007

mountain fuji

i am beginning to believe all the greatest wonders in life are not meant for keeps -

mountain fuji

December 21, 2006

something to ponder ~

Take this kiss upon the brow! And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem Is but a dream within a dream.


I stand amid the roar Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem But a dream within a dream?

- a dream within a dream Edgar Allan Poe

October 7, 2006

我今天不開心


*broken heart robot glow in the dark edition limited 500

i am not happy today
今天不开心
ich bin nicht heute glücklich
私は今日幸せでない
je ne suis pas heureux aujourd'hui
انا لست سعيده اليوم
non sono oggi felice
eu não sou feliz hoje
나는 오늘 행복하지 않다
今天不開心


i have nothing else to say if unhappiness is misinterpreted or poorly translated.



*google translator

October 3, 2006

a little bit of this ... a little bit of that ....


yesterday someone told me to stop living in the past - WOW - i swear i've heard this before -

i stopped wondering how or why - instead the question sparked this :

its a story about an unhappy man, stephane, who lives in a thin line between dreams and reality. half awake, half asleep; always living in that state of haziness ...


“Tonight I will show you how dreams are prepared; as you can see, a very delicate combination of complex ingredients is the key; first we put in some random thoughts, and then we add little bit of reminisces of the day mixed with some memories from the past for two people, love, friendships, relationships and all those ships together with songs you heard during the day things you saw...voila ! ”


the external world too disheartening, the internal too lonely ...

... where's the next escape ?




*if you liked eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, catch
the science of sleep by the same dude




SONG OF THE NIGHT ...again...FAIRYTALE (hit the little triangle on the left to PLAY )



*snatch a copy on www.yesasia.com ; michael wong's Fairytale 2005

September 29, 2006

*welcome to vegas


9.26.06 - a day before i hit my tenth month, i quit my job and went to vegas...


moving foward...


...can life get any better?

September 26, 2006

such is life..

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveller, long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --

I took the one less travelled by,
and that has made all the difference


-the road not taken Robert Frost

September 24, 2006

im lovin it !!!


life is like a game of chess...u gots the board, the rules, the pieces; the offense, the defense; the winnings and the losses; ya gotta take it all and breathe it in ....

- now why on earth would thoreau retreat into the woods ?



*google yoshitomo nara

September 20, 2006

keep walking....

(man and woman in the car)

"that woman is insane!" - man

"that woman is lucky" - woman


(man looks at woman in awe; woman continues...)

"...she's lucky because she's uncontrollable...free like a wild animal..."


suppressed feelings, repressed desires, conforming to society, confined self .... thus is life ~


*la notte; a 60s italian film by michaelangelo antonioni; catch it at kensington theatres




this is to the world... i love you all....




*bomber boy kubrick brought to you by medicom toys; limited edition; snatch it if u can

September 19, 2006

....there once was a tree...


i can't remember the first time i read this book and sometimes i dont want to remember the last time when i did read it.

looking at this book again today brings me slight sorrow yet solemn peace.

"simplicity! simplicity! simplicity!" says thoreau

if only i can train the mind to do so any maze would be easily overcome.


....who loved a little boy...



*shel silverstein - cop it at ebay or barnes and nobles online; $5 cheaper than in store price

September 16, 2006

monkey see monkey do

the people around me remind me of monkeys;
not sure if their brain and intelligence are even comparable to the ooo-ooo ahh-ahh's.

running around like fools, animals, blind travelers, merely seeking for survival, and perhaps a chance to stand out from the rest of their pack -

oh shit ! i think im part of the pack !

isnt life a prank ?

*Kay Borjesen's Wooden Monkey