today

it took me 5 hours to get out of the house
thats how so very hard it was for me today

friday i watched a made-in-china film
i dont usually watch low budget china movies
but zhou xun, whom i fell in love with

in perhaps love, was in the new movie

the equation of love and death -
the movie focused on Li Mi, a taxi driver
she was different from all the other cab drivers
she had it all simplified and figured out
work, love, marriage - life was set

but her parents forbid her to marry the man
he wasnt good enough
they were going to elope
but he realized too he was not good enough
so he left her

4 years later she was still waiting,
same streets, same corners
still reciting his letters
still counting their memories
and marking the days

one scene hit deep -
on an odd day she runs into him
she confronts him
he was adamant he did not know her,
he held another womans hand and walked away
li mi chased them down the street
the strength that carried her foward
for the past 4 years betrayed her

she finally broke down
she recited his letters, she screamed out his goals,
his ambitions, his promises to her and his dreams with her
but today he was to remain unmoved
and they, strangers.

4 years -

and she was still stuck.

watching this i realized something - love isnt a possession
and sometimes love doesnt have to be reciprocal

when you love someone you constantly wish them well
because thats all that matters. them.

love can be one-sided.

it was a good movie.

hlam

*i started this blog with the title taiwan - see how i went off on a tangent ~*