lam it !

hand in hand

2012-02-15T16:16:00.002-08:00

day 45 - be@rbrick series 13. hand in hand.

we have the characters from series 13 hand in hand

to show a lil love that is in the air.

happy valentine's day ! :)

happy valentine's day

2012-02-14T11:33:00.003-08:00

day 44 - happy valentines day. bearbrick series 13

theres no better way to celebrate this holiday of love

than with flowers and be@rbricks!

thats certainly the way i prefer it - floral and vinyl :)

2012-02-13T12:48:00.000-08:00

day 43 - be@rbrick series 13 BASIC K

you get a fabulous shot fo my closet

after i set the 2 second timer

and jumped outta the screen.

i def got quite a hopping excerise last night !

day 42 - be@rbrick series 13 genesis evangelion

for the the big anime fans

this is a great mini rendition of the characters in the anime.

it blends quite well with my self composed background.

i took a grip of urine analysis strips, which they use in a diagnostic lab

and tape them all together to get the backdrop.

it was definitely an experiment of my very own !

day 41 - be@rbrick series 13 HORROR HOSTEL

this wooden backdrop surely comes in handy.

its the second time i have used this in my photos,

but at different angles.

this was the most morbid backdrop

i could find laying around the house.

i thought it suit the be@rbrick HOSTEL character well.

ORANGE ATTACK !

2012-02-10T09:21:00.000-08:00

day 40 - bearbrick series 13 orange attack !!

check out this lean mean oranage machine

i might have put all my orange flavored vita gummies to waste

but i had to experiment the visual effects of it.

but

lil red ridin' hood ...

2012-02-09T09:31:00.001-08:00

day 39 - lil red ridin' hood ....

in their series 13 release

be@rbrick made lil red ridin' hood sexier than ever...

i think all my shots come on a whim.

i wanted to put her dashing through a fields of green her size

but that was impossible.

so i had her petting my cactus plant :)

rawrrrr ...!

2012-02-08T12:06:00.000-08:00

day 38 - iELEPHANT ! be@rbrick series 13

i find this photo to be quite cute actually.

i took a bunch of pebbles from my bamboo plant

and tossed it around my be@rbrick.

and voila ~

you have an elephant resurrecting from the ruins !

dunk it in water !

2012-02-07T17:57:00.001-08:00

day 37 - england almost under water be@rbrick series 13

england definitely aint under water like greece

...thank goodness !!

head above water england !

playing with objects & be@rbricks

2012-02-06T10:22:00.000-08:00

day 36 - be@rbrick wood wood jammin' w the ipod

medicom collaborated with wood wood,

a european line to produce our lil wood wood be@rbrick.

this was by midnight and i was drained of ideas.

so i put him jammin' w/ my ipod and headphones.

im not exactly pleased, but it will just have to do.

day 35 - a 'pair' of pandas, milk and tea. wwf x medicom

these are one of my faves.

i got these babies about 3 or 4 year ago from my BFF.

i have kept them stashed in their individual boxes.

but when i got my TOMs this weekend,

i thought it would make great art if i played w/ the 'pair' concept :)

day 34 - be@rbrick series 10

i never thought someone else's trash can become my art.

the wooden box came w/ a box of 2 yr old expired box of chocolate.

my coworker thought it would make great art for my bearbrick.

looking at the outcome,

i couldnt agree more :)

februrary be@rbricks

2012-02-03T10:04:00.000-08:00

the material of this be@rbrick is not the usual vinyl used.

if you look closely, you can see the difference in texture, but in case you can't, its felt. :)

this definitely is more unique for the usual vinyl toy; however, the shortcoming of felt is its ability to pick up lint. again, this is reflected in the photo. :)

day 33 - cute be@rbrick series 10

this shot came almost unplanned as do almost all my photos.

this was a difficult be@rbrick to begin with as he only contained 2 colors.

Black to begin with does not really stand out, nor does white.

I didnt want the color to be dulled out.

so i finally decided to use a little flash light to highlight the top part of the head

and the bottom part of the feet.

everything in between just flushes right into the black background.

shooting his series 10 pattern be@rbrick was like shooting a scoop of rainbow ice cream

it contains alot of bright colors which can be a little distracting.

so i wanted to only highlight its best features it.

day 32 - death by design be@rbrick series 10

be@rbrick all month long ...

2012-02-02T13:34:00.001-08:00

my obsession with be@rbricks has led to this project

i may have challenged myself to a project greater than myself.

but this concludes the first 31 days of my be@rbrick photo mania ...

335 days left ....

day 31 - be@rbrick parts

day 30 - be@rbrick series 10 PM KEN

day 29 - be@rbrick series 10; theres no place like home...

day 28 - jelly be@rbrick series 10 o the strip

day 27 - jelly be@rbrick series 10; partyin under the vegas light

day 26 - be@rbrick series 10 ykt kubism

day 25 - be@rbrick series 12 concludes here

day 24 - be@rbrick series 12 flag france

day 23 - be@rbrick flag china; chinese new year

day 22 - a be@rbrick dream

day 21 - be@rbrick horro SAW

day 20 - be@rbrick peeka boo !

more be@rbrick madness !!

2012-01-20T09:45:00.000-08:00

a photo a day seems to be a bigger project

than i had originally projected

the time and energy exerted into this

has become immeasurable

coming up with new settings,

new lighting, positions, etc on a daily basis

has to be constant,

but the outcome and the satisfaction is remarkable

day 19 - this is camouflage....

day 18 - too cute to resist

day 17 - gruesome, yet just adorable

Project 366

2012-01-17T17:14:00.000-08:00

and so it happens to be leap year ...

looks like i need to squeeze another photo out this year ....

day 6 - my precious cuddling w my precious. 100% pepsi girl

day 7 - the idea is to kill, with style. kill bill.

day 8 - a day away from my be@rbricks

day 9 - muah ha ha ... evil can come in white too. momotaros imagin

day 10 - a comic con sell out. iron man 2 mark vi 400%

day 11 - the only 'skater' item i own. t19 skateboards x medicom

day 12 - theyre complete. pepsi boy and girl 100%

day 13 - anything more horrific than the site of this? horror 100%

day 14 - jelly in the belly. jelly 100%

day 15 - can you say moooooooooo ..... animal be@rbrick.

day 16 - *always on my mind* elvis 30th yr anniversary

Project 365

2012-01-06T15:47:00.001-08:00

To kick off the new year

I have committed to

three hundred and sixty five days

of photography.

A photograph a day

in hopes to enhance my creativity

day 1 - lego re-launches their superhero series

day 2 - batman

day 3 - a total to die for frank kozik piece. i searched near and far for this 400%

still in the search for the 1000%

day 4 - superman 400% and 100%

day 5 - bwwt 1. be@rbricks 1st world wide tour collection.

life

2011-06-07T13:40:00.000-07:00

life is all about perspective

all about attitude

adjust your lens

change the lighting

or remove the subject

your cup can be half empty

or half full

its all up to you

2011-02-03T09:10:00.000-08:00

my morning starts like this ...

http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XNDcxNDc5NTY=.html

heart warming

2010-12-19T14:05:00.000-08:00

nothing warms my heart

like an old familiar song

nothings gonna change my love for you

china

2010-09-30T23:24:00.001-07:00

audi, mercedes, bentley, and ferrari...

gucci, prada, tiffanys, and louis vuitton...

china and her hunger for progression

has become a stranger to me.

i took over 2000 pictures this time

i wanted to preserve as much as i could.

i only wanted to remember china.

china and her purity.

journeying

2010-08-22T22:38:00.000-07:00

5 yrs later - i never thought my feet

would take me back to this land

where so much sorrow

so much joy

so much laughter

so much tears

so much hate

and so much love

was conceived.

UNITED AIRLINES         10SEP SAN FRANCIS CA BEIJING          1151A     315P

SHANGHAI AIRLINES        15SEP BEIJING SHANGHAI    1130AM   130P

CHINA EASTERN AIRLINES 18SEP SHANGHAI BEIJING    830A  1030A

UNITED AIRLINES          19SEP BEIJING        LOS ANGELES CA  1200N     1229P

i-happy

2010-06-15T08:50:00.001-07:00

flowers....

and amusement parks ...

complete san diego ...

lil lam 2010

chinese new years

2010-05-10T21:15:00.000-07:00

i was enjoying lunch at starbux

when a frail looking lady walked by

her skin darkened by the sun

her hair whitened by age

her hand gripping tight to her plastic bag

she dragged her feet

looked through every trash can

disappointed at every empty search

i left my drink

returned to my car

popped the trunk

and pulled out 3 full bags of empty bottles

she was resting on the bench

exhausted by the search

and burnt out by the heat

she said xie xie

as i handed her my bags

i then realized she was Chinese

as i drove away

all i could think about was this lady

i turned my car around

but she was gone

on the biggest day of our lunar calender

she was collecting empty bottles

i-lobster

2010-04-26T10:40:00.000-07:00

shelling .7 lb lobster

1.5 lb lobster

butter it up

cleaning it down w/ salt & lemon

soaking lobster tails in irish butter

in the george foreman for 4 mins

time for vegies ...

preparing asparagus....

fresh out of the grill...

dinner is served ....

we dine like kings...

my babies

2010-04-08T22:34:00.001-07:00

i just realized how damn photogenic they are

so proud am i

lil lam

7 yrs

2010-03-31T10:34:00.000-07:00

i still get chills when I think about it.

7 whole years.

hannah lam

2010

so happy am i !

2010-03-19T10:33:00.000-07:00

400% BWWT MCT Bearbrick - Medicom product. Bearbrick Worldwide Tour exclusive.

Medicom Be@rbrick - Megaman's Protoman

Medicom Be@rbrick - Megaman's Rockman

ah... so good is life.

attitude

2010-01-21T14:46:00.000-08:00

The longer I live,

the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.

Attitude, to me,

is more important than facts.

It is more important than the past,

the education, the money,

than circumstances, than failure, than successes,

than what other people think or say or do.

It is more important than appearance,

giftedness or skill.

It will make or break a company...

a church... a home.

The remarkable thing is

we have a choice everyday regarding

the attitude we will embrace for that day.

We cannot change our past...

we cannot change the fact

that people will act in a certain way.

We cannot change the inevitable.

The only thing we can do is

play on the one string we have,

and that is our attitude.

I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me

and 90% of how I react to it.

And so it is with you...

we are in charge of our Attitudes.

2009-09-30T00:31:00.000-07:00

this past week
i learned something new -
white lies,
little lies,
big lies
every lie -
cuts like a knife

ruthlessly. mercilessly.

i hid in fear.
i was kept in the dark.
i begged for the closure
no one thought i deserved.

finding out the truth
hurts twice as much.
the human heart
really hides a sword.

ardent vent

2009-05-28T08:40:00.000-07:00

figured id write something for may

since my average has been a blog a month

most of my blogs seem to be dark, desperate reflections

i thought id try something new

ive been following this political piece since day one

and its been making my blood boil since

aung san suu kyi

its not fair! not fair! not fair!

progression has such a great price to it

this one was far too much to pay for -

stubborn military leaders straining the country by the neck

one dumb american who thought he saw the light

and a hopeful advocate sitting in house arrest for 13 years.

its time to release her and burma!

Arrrgh !

lil lam

this april

2009-04-19T13:19:00.000-07:00

4 years ago an old friend left his job in burbank
and ventured off to china to teach english

soon after losing communication with him
i too ended up in taiwan teaching english.

this person has always been in my thoughts
ive always wondered about his tracks and wellbeing.

the last time i saw him was 4 years ago
we had a conversation over a pitcher of beer
about what he coined emotional baggage.

this week he told me he is well,
returned a better person, and has moved on.

i was sincerely happy to hear that.

h.lam

january post

2009-01-06T21:36:00.000-08:00

so the year starts off for me as is

and it is what it is sometimes

keshi wo jingtian zhende bu kaixin -

anyway - happy '09

hlam

the other taiwan

2008-10-18T15:17:00.000-07:00

sometime last week the weather was rainy and murky, and i laid in bed without a purpose -
an old feeling came over me that brought me back to taiwan.

i rarely talk about taiwan, and if i did id only rave about whats expected -
the food, the experience to travel, the youth to see the world,
and all that other way too familar cliches.

i grew up in a family where love & care, heart aches & breaks,
feelings and emotions, failure and shame were never talked about.
when running into these experiences, they morphed into predicaments
i could not understand, explain, process, and accept.
so i did what everyone does best- ran

i arrived in taiwan early february. taiwan was no different.
i still had the same shadow. i had the same reflection in the mirror.
i could still feel the same limbs when waking up,
and that familar morning foot sore from an old injury.

i thought i had filtered out the noises - family, friends, my so-called career.
feelings of idleness and sadness. but there was still so much emptiness.

i had one friend. i lived alone in a 2 story studio.
taiwan was always overcast and showers.
most mornings are disrupted by drums and chants
by family members marching the streets as part of a funeral custom.
in the evenings dump trunks parade the streets with jingles blasting from loud-speakers
reminding you to wait at the curb with your garbage and recyclelabes.
i could hear the rain, the dead, and the dumpster -

i take the same walks and hikes because i only recognize one path.
i only go to one mall, one market, one movie theatre,
because i only knew how to take one bus route.
i could only go to taipei and back because i couldnt stand on a train for over an hr.

those six months were difficult. i hiked alot and stayed in bed alot.
id lay awake in a fetal position and wonder what the hell i was doing on this island.
sleeping pills helped me sleep for 12 hours straight
and if i woke up before the 12th hour, i'd be crabby and groggy the whole day.

on holidays, and days like valentines, and mothers day id spend alone.
i took my camera and took hikes alone. watched sunsets alone.
walked alone. ate alone. came home alone. got lost alone.

but i was proud, because everything i did, i did it without a hand.

six months of solitude and reflection, i was still me.
only stronger and more enduring.
i was done with taiwan.

taiwan was lonely. but in those six months of self-torture in taiwan, i learned one thing. there is no pity or sympathy because we do it to ourselves. those successful in life never allow their surroundings to control them; they control their surroundings. i booked a ticket for the next week to come home, and i told everyone about the wonderful time i spent abroad. thats all i told them, thats all they need to know, because the story of my life belongs only to me.

lil lam.

today

2008-10-12T19:10:00.000-07:00

it took me 5 hours to get out of the house
thats how so very hard it was for me today

friday i watched a made-in-china film
i dont usually watch low budget china movies
but zhou xun, whom i fell in love with

in perhaps love, was in the new movie

the equation of love and death -
the movie focused on Li Mi, a taxi driver
she was different from all the other cab drivers
she had it all simplified and figured out
work, love, marriage - life was set

but her parents forbid her to marry the man
he wasnt good enough
they were going to elope
but he realized too he was not good enough
so he left her

4 years later she was still waiting,
same streets, same corners
still reciting his letters
still counting their memories
and marking the days

one scene hit deep -
on an odd day she runs into him
she confronts him
he was adamant he did not know her,
he held another womans hand and walked away
li mi chased them down the street
the strength that carried her foward
for the past 4 years betrayed her

she finally broke down
she recited his letters, she screamed out his goals,
his ambitions, his promises to her and his dreams with her
but today he was to remain unmoved
and they, strangers.

4 years -

and she was still stuck.

watching this i realized something - love isnt a possession
and sometimes love doesnt have to be reciprocal

when you love someone you constantly wish them well
because thats all that matters. them.

love can be one-sided.

it was a good movie.

hlam

*i started this blog with the title taiwan - see how i went off on a tangent ~*

i think i can .... nigero !!!

2008-09-23T20:48:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel like a hamster when im on a treadmill
sometimes i wish i was a hamster then i can skip out on the thinking part

i think alot on the treadmill
i think about where i've ran to, what i've ran from
and where i am running toward

i think about my feet
i think about how far theyve taken me
i think about my mind
and how far that has taken me

i think i like running
it keeps me grounded, it reminds me to pace myself,
it reminds me to constantly breathe,
it reminds me that we all need a duration
a destination, and a purpose

im coming down with a cold today
and i feel a little fuzzy but i needed this run today

the last 2 weeks have proved to me
how imperfect i am
that i can fail miserably
that i too can be prone to failures

i realized that i am the average person

lam

august 2008

2008-08-17T23:39:00.000-07:00

2008, not so very great

it took me this long to realize being female can be so rough
and this tough

we are sex symbols
properties, possessions, nothing but sex objects,
and for a lack of better terms

just a piece of meat

in many situations we are only an enticing piece of meat;
at work, at social gatherings, amongst friends,
and even at home, amongst family,
bringing about some of the greatest
betrayals, resentments, and disappointments.

these situations wreck havoc
and cause irreversible damage
but they also reveal the true colors of
mankind/ woman kind / or whatever kind
sadly, i've seen it and now believe it.

august 2008 -
im cursed with another face slapping reality
yet, im blessed with this eye-opener, this life-changer, making me only stronger.

little lam

july two

2008-07-01T21:26:00.000-07:00

the time ive spent away from blogging
ive spent trying to avoid thinking.

tomorrow i turn a year older
and again, the days leading to july two
i cant help but to reflect who i am today
who i was before tomorrow
and who i will be after wednesday

i have been fighting.
sometimes i fight and fall, fall and hurt, and hurt and cry
but i convince myself to fight to stand fight to breathe,
and fight to live

ive long lived in this metal armor
and nearly forgotten who i am
chickflicks still make me bawl but you'll never see it
airports make my heart ache and ill never take you.
cemetaries i hate and will never talk about
the site of a needle will weaken me at the knee
and once in a while, like an old train,
i will come off the tracks and i will breakdown.

the every days of the last 25 years have been a fight
sometimes i come outta the ring a winner
and sometimes im pounded and remembered as a nobody

a warrior ive pushed myself to be
but behind all this armor i am only me.
and i am allowed to cry.

just today. let me cry.
cause it has hurt this much to get this far
to find even a grain of strength.

im only me.

hl july 1 2008
swt home san diego

dear god

2008-05-27T20:11:00.000-07:00

i wanna be a ball of cloud
i wanna belong to the sky
i wanna float through time
channel through life
and just keep floating

i wish i were a ball of cloud

i wouldnt care about direction
wouldnt acknowledge people
and wouldnt recognize emotions

i'd only belong to the sky
and float through life
like a ball of cloud

please god,
turn me into
a big ball of cloud

hlam.
05272008

the lonesome puppy

2008-04-29T23:42:00.000-07:00

this book is about an oversized dog overlooked due to his ginormous size, and therefore endures loneliness. one day he meets a young girl by surprise. their lives took a twist, fate took a spin. this lonesome puppy, who had longed for companionship found his life's bestest friend. hl.

ive always enjoyed yoshitomo nara's artwork.

the first time i picked up a copy was about 3 years ago
in a japanese book store in sf
i was intrigued then

half a year later at my lowest i was again drawn to his art
his characters gave me a voice,
they spoke on my behalf about happiness and sadness,
frustrations and annoyances, hope and disappointment, anger and passion
all of which i could never successfully acknowledge or express.

nara's 2006 calender is still hanging on my wall.

april of every year

2008-04-13T12:46:00.000-07:00

two stools, two bikes, two people

spring 2007
i had one of the happiest aprils ever
i never thought that could happen
after a history of april disappointments

sometime before i die

i wanna run through a field of sakuras again
i wanna sit under the blossomed flowers and picnic

i wanna see japan in a blanket of snow
and relive that magical feeling
of a white christmas

and if i were to die
id want it to happen in spring
so my ashes can be scattered
where the cherry blossoms grow

japan, just 3 more times.

hl

april one

2008-04-01T21:16:00.000-07:00

two thousand ...three...

he leapt from the 24th floor to fly ...

he left behind his baggage ...

and he flew high ...

away from all his fears he flew -

leslie cheung

1956-2003

strawberry parfait

2008-03-30T02:18:00.000-07:00

i knew of only one place in this city for strawberry parfait.
i've only had it there so i always knew of it as the best.

a year later they stopped carrying strawberry parfait.
i never had parfait again.
that was about 8 years ago.
i thought about this driving by the area today

this should answer your question.
do you think love has an expiration date?
asked my coworker weeks ago.

the consumer demand for the parfait expired.
the strawberry expired.
the shelf life expired.

like the parfait,
alot of things in life will expire.

there may be today.
there may be tomorrow.
but there is no such thing as forever.

thats as best i can answer your question

ill have to live til the end to find out if forever indeed exists

hl
lil lam living reality
3.30.08
3.54am

too lusty or too much caution?

2008-03-07T22:51:00.000-08:00

recently i heard someone bought this dvd,

watched it,

was disgusted,

and is looking for someone else to give it away to.

i dont think this film is about nudity or sex

i dont think this film is about the blood & grudge of ww2

i dont think this film is about ang lee or his hollywood attempt

this film is about the way he secretly looked at her
and the way she secretly looked at him

this film is about the way she convinced him she loved him
and how he finally compromised with loving her

this film is about the way he convinced her he loved her
and how she finally compromised with loving him

the series of events
open the pages of a love
short-lived
with no ending

im waiting for a limited edition to be released.

hl
lost in thought tonight

3.18.08 11.48pm

this song

2008-03-01T04:27:00.000-08:00

this song

the accident didnt rip any skin or bone
just an aching body, a mild concussion,
and then i started humming this song.

whether i am brushing my teeth
or staring at the computer screen,
waiting to fall asleep when night falls
or awakening to the recent morning chill,
this song has been loop playing in my head.
i dont like that.

but i like the song.

a lil lam in time
march 1 2008
5:01am

dinosaurs are extinct

2008-02-18T22:06:00.000-08:00

lil lams reality-vision campaign welcomes

the lamotto of 2008

dinosaurs appeared some 200 million years ago.

sadly, some crazy catastrophic event led to their final extinction.

what's left today are fossils, recreations, and tall tall tales,

leaving the audience to ponder about its' ever existence.

one thing i've become certain of over the past years, months, weeks,

days, hours, minutes, and even up to this very second -

love is dead like dinosaurs. extinct!

but unlike dinosaurs there are no fossils or surviving proof of it.

only those tall tall tall tall tales of watchamacallit L@v3

lam @ real time

10:46pm

** i believe in love. i just dont believe it will happen to me **

hlam 10.20.08 12:33am

perhaps love

2008-01-12T14:48:00.000-08:00

ive been thinking much about jacky cheung's concert
and about the reenactments from perhaps love

this brief segment of the concert has signifcant value to me

i owe it this

this musical told the story of 3 artists
who only sought beautiful things in life
and the greatest beauty of all -

love

they fought and battled for this beauty
the aggression and desperation began
the beauty of love diminished
the innocence defiled

love became an unspeakable unfathomable tragic

it started with a naive love between two people
this sweet bitter love story soon faded
such mishap adversely leads to another man's fortune
he finds her, he loves her
he possesses her

and wants to conquer all of her

she loved him back
but also loved her past
unable to detangle herself from the past
and unable to give her all to the present

she wanted to move forward

but couldnt help to look backward

they each become a part of the triangle

the three corners could never meet , could never connect

would never be complete ...

... perhaps, love

*from the producer & director of comrades, almost a love story*

lil lam

another weekend day

i stand alone

2007-12-31T01:56:00.000-08:00

january 2007 - i slept through life

february 2007 - i continued sleeping

march 2007 - i awoke from my slumber in haze

april 2007 - i smiled some

may 2007 - i found solitude

june 2007 - i reflected

july 2007 - i turned 24

august 2007 - i smiled a little more

september 2007 - i was ready to go home

october 2007 - i found some strength

november 2007 - i found some motivation

december 2007 - i'm ready to stand alone

some people can't be replaced, and some memories can't be taken away.

they call it growing pains....
but i've tread the paths, endured the pain, and left my marks...

they call it emotional baggage..
i call it history in the making...
and in this book of history....

i crawled, dragged my feet, but finally learned to walk.

It's taken this long, but I'm ready for 2008 - to finally stand alone.

image borrowed from yoshitomo nara

2007 was fair, but 2008 will be gre8t! (with an 8)

a song to end the year

an ode to life & music by justin lo

12.31.07

2:52 am

jacky says...

2007-12-26T04:17:00.000-08:00

there's a price to pay to growing up

growth is a long difficult process

growing up, you will experience happiness and then sadness

or sadness and then happiness

and this will continue to alternate and fluctuate throughout your entire life

2003 was the worst year of jacky's life and career as he bid farewell to two of his friends

then came 2005, the best year of his life

as he was blessed with a daughter

lessons dont come easy

thats the price to pay for growing up

you just have to live through the sadness

and look foward to the happiness

*above was summarized from the concert with a twist of the lam*

jacky rocked the house.

he kicked off the concert with a couple of fast songs and dances

and this continued throughout the concert,

he sang a few of his more known classics

and he finished the concert with reenactments from perhaps love

my favorite song?

i still think you were the best

i believe in music;

i believe it can drive you to tears...

if you believe in music....

2007-12-21T01:39:00.000-08:00

if you believe in music....

... then you'll believe that it can move you to tears ....

few singers and few songs have that power over me

jacky cheung is one of them.

everytime he throws a world tour, im determined to go;

but not determined enough that i never end up going.

accurately speaking, not courageous enough.

jacky's music strings together the pages of a big chapter in my life.

December 23 Sunday @ 8pm
Caesars Palace

I've got no where to run.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghlrZy-eznI&feature=related

5:21 am

2007-11-10T05:04:00.000-08:00

I sat 3 hours in traffic from San Diego to Los Angeles yesterday to interview him at the press conference.

The drive was frustrating, but his charm and genuineness, made it worth it.

I sat 4 hours in traffic again today to the USC Galen Center to see him perform.

The sincerity of his songs and the power of his voice made it worth it.

Wakin's music soothed my mind while I was growing up. As an adult, his music continues to do so. It's 5:21 in the morning and I'm still sitting here replaying every scene from yesterday and today.

It has been so long since I listened to some of the songs performed tonight. It felt like Wakin was singing our history, bringing us to the past, and reciting to us our stories. Every song stirred up an old feeling, a familar emotion. Every song was attached to a unique feeling, a unique moment, and only Wakin could bring us to reliving it.

In memory of Wakin's 20th anniversary - I shook his hand and gave him a hug.

Thanks for an incredible interview and experience.

6 months later

2007-11-04T02:30:00.000-08:00

after 6 months of soul rejuvenation, i feel alive again.

the eyes that could not open to see any sort of beauty is peering again.

life is placed right before me, and im gonna live it.

lust & caution

2007-10-07T23:48:00.000-07:00

lust, caution

so beautiful is love to see, yet impossible to hold

october 2007

music that moves -

2007-10-01T03:44:00.000-07:00

... emil chau ....

see email chau live in SF & LA

his voice was music to my ears for a long length of time during childhood and adoloscense. music then flowed into my ears like a stream of joy. after college, i stopped listening to music altogether.

music became broken chords, each key and pitch, ignited a different emotion - and each emotion triggered a series of memories like one shuffling through flashcards.

i had forgotten the sheer existence of his music in my life until coming across a poster in LA. November 9, 2007 @ 8:30pm on USC grounds, Emil Chau will be performing. Come and join me in the orchestras for a night to remember.

it was one of the wong kar wai's movies, ashes of time, that one of the characters uttered these words, the more you want to forget, the more you remember.

me in san diego

10.01.07 @ 3:33am , and lovin' it

it starts with a "B"

2007-08-25T12:51:00.000-07:00

the first blog ever posted on lam it! concerned toys...toys and more boxes of toyz....

i cant emphasize enough what money can buy - happiness ...
... and what toys can do - happiness ...

whether it be momentary or not; shit - live the moment, enjoy and embrace every emotions creeping and crawling up and down your spine.

happiness comes simplest for me - of all the B words, you never thought it could be this could you ... be@rbrick

hl

confessions of a lam

2007-06-30T10:39:00.000-07:00

confessions of a lam

so i finally uploaded a photo for my user profile.
and nonetheless its yoshitomo nara's work i settled on.
perhaps the inexplicable is best explained through sketches of pissed little kids.

fighting it says. right at birth your are fighting to suckle to stay alive, when death meets, you are again fighting - only this time to take the next breath, praying its not your last.

more than half of your life you will be fighting - for what is rightfully yours,

wrongfully yours, or never meant to be yours.

the days approaching the big 24 is dreadful.
for one, since childhood ive deemed 4 as my ominous digit.
having nearly reached a quarter of a century, i look back on my trail and my footsteps, and cannot name one big accomplishment. the only conversation you can reel out of me with or without the effect of alcohol pertains only to life - the if's and what if's, why and how of life.

im still a kid trying to see the world - some days in my shell, some days out.

i got on a rollercoaster ride with no destination.
it won't stop for you to get off let alone catch your breath.
similarly, the world wont stop rotating because you're stumped.
you've just gotta breathe it in and embrace it.

like alot of things - i dont know what it means to be 24.
but i hope it takes me somewhere.

lil lam
taoyuan, taiwan
07/01/07
2:08am

ice cream burrito

2007-06-28T07:08:00.000-07:00

for $1.50usd you get this to die for burrito ice cream.

its a thin layer of chinese tortilla, some shredded seaweed, and fresh carved peanuts wrapped with 2 scoops of ice cream (taro and strawberry flavors).

the flavor ? not as sapid as a haggen diaz but
im tellin ya - only taiwan can pull this kinda stuff off

never settle for less

2007-06-12T07:11:00.000-07:00

check out the specs on this black beauty

it should be going for $999USD body & kit

mine mine mine

hopefully before the dragon boat festival this week

this new wave of three fourths photograhy pioneered by olympus brings to you

a prosumer camera fully equipped with digital magic which

nontheless includes live preview options - its just to die for

toss it into your carts as it hits the shelves

i fell in love ...

2007-06-09T08:24:00.000-07:00

two weeks ago with this ....

Canon EOS 400D Digital Rebel XTi

Thats right - the rebel redefining photography -

soon to be in my hands.

stay tuned.

the beauty of life

2007-04-30T04:16:00.000-07:00

The crime of suicide lies in its disregard for the feelings of those whom we leave behind.

E. M. Forster (1879-1970)

myoden tokyo

2007-04-26T00:22:00.000-07:00

4.7.07 - myoden tokyo

look around you -

amid the distractions, there's tranquility

it just starts from within

no expections, no disappointments.

mountain fuji april 2007

2007-04-09T18:39:00.000-07:00

富士山下

good evening from taiwan

2007-03-15T03:43:00.000-07:00

good evening from the land of formosa.

puni - sweet & chewy on the outside, killer sour inside.
robitussin w. a honey filling at 59tpe a box (divide amt by 33 for usd)

a solo dinner @ 8:30pm 3.14.07; the bag includes a sushi box, strawberry mentos, and green tea with no sugar & lemon soda w. vita C to heal the illness

midnight snack after a stroll at the local 24 hr market & an unfilling sushi dinner - 3.14.07 at 1:30am. tian bu la - a bowl of vegies and tofu splashed with a slight pink colored sweet and sour sauce. ruo wan - a chewy flour pocketing a tiny meat ball in the center also splashed w pink sauce.

this is lil lam signing out on 3.15.07 @ 7:25pm from taoyuan city, taiwan

mountain fuji

2007-02-20T23:16:00.001-08:00

i am beginning to believe all the greatest wonders in life are not meant for keeps -

mountain fuji

something to ponder ~

2006-12-21T21:11:00.000-08:00

Take this kiss upon the brow! And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let me avow-

You are not wrong, who deem That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone?

All that we see or seem Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar Of a surf-tormented shore,

And I hold within my hand Grains of the golden sand-

How few! yet how they creep Through my fingers to the deep,

While I weep- while I weep!

O God! can I not grasp Them with a tighter clasp?

O God! can I not save One from the pitiless wave?

Is all that we see or seem But a dream within a dream?

- a dream within a dream Edgar Allan Poe

another reminiscing

2006-11-12T22:57:00.000-08:00

sipping a grande latte and nibbling on an expresso brownie on a sunday night and a familar feeling overcomes me triggering the portrait of one of my more memorable birthdays ....

我今天不開心

2006-10-07T21:45:00.000-07:00

*broken heart robot glow in the dark edition limited 500

i am not happy today
今天不开心
ich bin nicht heute glücklich
私は今日幸せでない
je ne suis pas heureux aujourd'hui
انا لست سعيده اليوم
non sono oggi felice
eu não sou feliz hoje
나는 오늘 행복하지 않다
今天不開心

i have nothing else to say if unhappiness is misinterpreted or poorly translated.

*google translator

a box of joy

2006-10-06T01:03:00.000-07:00

a month ago i placed an order on j-list for my walkie bit and some greenies. i was wondering which snail boat it was sitting on. the company had withdrawn the money but i hadn't seen the delivery.

*big sigh of relief*

yummy yummy!! ume flavored seaweed and chewies, green tea milky and green pea flavored pretz - life for an unemployed cant get any better, i tell ya!

my lean mean green turtle machine:

im still stoked that this ninja turtle can walk, run, and sing - alot of what i cant do.

no idea what im blabbing about - still lost and in the dark? check it

an unemployed with lots of time, lots of cash, and lots of nothing to do; and a box of purchased joy.

what can i say ? i'm easily fascinated

a little bit of this ... a little bit of that ....

2006-10-03T00:56:00.000-07:00

yesterday someone told me to stop living in the past - WOW - i swear i've heard this before -

i stopped wondering how or why - instead the question sparked this :

its a story about an unhappy man, stephane, who lives in a thin line between dreams and reality. half awake, half asleep; always living in that state of haziness ...

“Tonight I will show you how dreams are prepared; as you can see, a very delicate combination of complex ingredients is the key; first we put in some random thoughts, and then we add little bit of reminisces of the day mixed with some memories from the past for two people, love, friendships, relationships and all those ships together with songs you heard during the day things you saw...voila ! ”

the external world too disheartening, the internal too lonely ...

... where's the next escape ?

*if you liked eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, catch the science of sleep by the same dude

SONG OF THE NIGHT ...again...FAIRYTALE (hit the little triangle on the left to PLAY )

*snatch a copy on www.yesasia.com ; michael wong's Fairytale 2005

what the world needs now ....

2006-10-02T00:36:00.000-07:00

....is love sweet love ....

-carpenters

*broken heart robot; limited to 500 worldwide; get it while it lasts

read the story http://www.brokenheartrobot.com/

*welcome to vegas

2006-09-29T00:20:00.000-07:00

9.26.06 - a day before i hit my tenth month, i quit my job and went to vegas...

moving foward...

...can life get any better?

such is life..

2006-09-26T16:21:00.001-07:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveller, long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --

I took the one less travelled by,
and that has made all the difference

-the road not taken Robert Frost

im lovin it !!!

2006-09-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

life is like a game of chess...u gots the board, the rules, the pieces; the offense, the defense; the winnings and the losses; ya gotta take it all and breathe it in ....

- now why on earth would thoreau retreat into the woods ?

*google yoshitomo nara

keep walking....

2006-09-20T21:22:00.000-07:00

(man and woman in the car)

"that woman is insane!" - man

"that woman is lucky" - woman

(man looks at woman in awe; woman continues...)

"...she's lucky because she's uncontrollable...free like a wild animal..."

suppressed feelings, repressed desires, conforming to society, confined self .... thus is life ~

*la notte; a 60s italian film by michaelangelo antonioni; catch it at kensington theatres

this is to the world... i love you all....

*bomber boy kubrick brought to you by medicom toys; limited edition; snatch it if u can

....there once was a tree...

2006-09-19T21:26:00.000-07:00

i can't remember the first time i read this book and sometimes i dont want to remember the last time when i did read it.

looking at this book again today brings me slight sorrow yet solemn peace.

"simplicity! simplicity! simplicity!" says thoreau

if only i can train the mind to do so any maze would be easily overcome.

....who loved a little boy...

*shel silverstein - cop it at ebay or barnes and nobles online; $5 cheaper than in store price

monkey see monkey do

2006-09-16T06:41:00.000-07:00

the people around me remind me of monkeys;
not sure if their brain and intelligence are even comparable to the ooo-ooo ahh-ahh's.

running around like fools, animals, blind travelers, merely seeking for survival, and perhaps a chance to stand out from the rest of their pack -

oh shit ! i think im part of the pack !

isnt life a prank ?

*Kay Borjesen's Wooden Monkey

not today!

2006-09-13T23:25:00.000-07:00

september 13 2006 - not today. i sting , i bite, im lethal. leave me alone !

"happy birthday michael tam"

*cactus friends bastardino - Simone Legno

teeth chattering

2006-09-12T23:50:00.000-07:00

Chicken had her physical today after being attacked by a pit bull 20 millions blocks from our house. Way to go pet owners who can afford a dog but not a leash. May I suggest Big Lots! I can't wait to run a report by H.O.A. and SD Animal Services.

Coincidentally, I had my first phyiscal with Dr. K today at the UCSD Clinic in Mira Mesa.

Besides having me strip half naked, touching EVERY body part, and drawing a gallon of blood, he told me I was intense. .. I nearly fell off my chair when the words floated in my ears

"you're an intense one"

Intense?! - No way! I'm averaging a mere 55 hours a week at work. You should have seen me running around like a zombie 2 months ago. :X

Song of the night...

*Fairytale - Michael Wong*

His songs hit deep; his mvs are tearjerkers!

I remember I once sent a copy from China to the states along with a nice card hoping it would deliver in 3 months. It's been 2 years and 4 months. It's probably still sitting on a boat in an ocean somewhere. Unheard, unread. Some things just aren't meant to be. Not every story has a fairytale ending.

Cop it! Can't afford it? At least have the decency to download it. The man invested 2 years in this album!

skippity...hoppity....

2006-09-12T00:14:00.000-07:00

skippity ... hoppity ...

*dream sheeps by ci boys

what better to do with hard earned money than to splurge it on vinyl toys with plastered happiness on their faces.

happiness is for sale afterall.

walkie bit *melon

2006-09-10T21:59:00.000-07:00

it walks, it runs, and it sings ... and it walks, it runs, and it sings....

and so it walks, it runs, and it sings...

its a walkie bit

* brought to you by takara; cop it in melon green, blue, pineapple yellow, pink, red, and orange.

a slow, a long, an inevitable journey; welcome to life - welcome to my blog posting # 1